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[music| 蘇打綠 ~無與倫比的美麗]
Wah! It’s been a long time since I have updated. 
I guess I have just been busy.
Ethan- 9months update
I can’t believe Ethan is already 9 months old. He is not as big as I thought he’d be–for a while he was one of the biggest babies I know. I think it is because he drinks only breastmilk. I am hoping it is not because he’s been on steroid medication for his ezcema. It’s really bad on 2 spots on his face (cheek and chin) to the point he keeps ripping them open. We’ve tried so many creams and even oral steroids. All this can’t be good for him…*sigh* He’s going to the doc today (hence, I have time to access xanga since I am home) to see. I think it’s infected now 
He has a dermatology appt in a month. Cross your fingers he can get in earlier. We have the absolute best pediatrician possible (we all seriously love him) so for once, I am going to trust a doctor and not worry as usual 
It could also be allergies–I have to eliminate everything from my own diet and all the frozen breastmilk is on hold. It will suck if that milk can’t be used–I have over 4600 oz that I will end up needing to get rid of. I am going to see if I can donate to CHOC’s NICU–those babies need it the most.
Anyways, here are some recent pics. He goes to the doc next week for the 9m check up, so I will let you know how much he weighs and how tall he is then 
These were taken on Sunday. It was the first time Ethan had ever been on the grass so he didn’t really like it (see how he won’t put his foot down).
I haven’t updated since 6 months. Ethan has been crawling, standing, cruising and talking (mama, baba, neinei, ga ga, dada, and other babbling) non-stop for a while now. He’s also doing some thrusting thing a lot 
Work
I have seriously thought about quitting teaching lately. I love my job, my students, my principals, my subject, etc. But I hate hate hate hate hate the instability. I never know if I will have a job the following year (even though I am tenured) and if I do, will it be full time? It just makes me feel that I can’t move forward in life with things like buying a house (now is a great time in our area), settling down, etc. I am so sick of apartment living. I hate my complex, the management, the neighbors, etc. Ugh. Not to mention we need more space with Ethan. Even to buy a small condo here in South County, the cheapest I have seen is 300k–imagine what I could get in Ohio for that 
Who knows…at the time where I am ‘all grown up’ I somehow feel the most unstable and unsure…
Dang, I just totally went off on a mini-rant Anyways, the state has to cut $ and now it’s coming from education (surprise, surprise) so our district has to cut 31million this year alone. They’re talking about ending school in May (we would not be paid for that time off in May and June), cutting teachers salaries back by 10%, freezing us on our step (years worked) and not allowing any more pay raises, cutting out all athletics and co-curricular activities (varsity, cheerleading, etc.), and cutting out music and electives. A really repuatable district in So County is now going to be more ‘bare -bones’ than some inner city schools I have worked in
I hope our union rejects these new terms, but it never seems to work that way. It sucks our school board is a bunch of parents who hate the public school system (everyone knows these particular people’s children go to private schools) and think that the $ we get as a public school, should go to fund their private ones I am still confuses how in the hell these people got on a board to begin with?
